Have you ever felt like your life was just stale? Felt like there was nothing in it. I know it may sound strange, but some times that is how I feel, even though I know God’s Spirit is in me. Believe me, it’s not God or His Holy Spirit, I have come to that knowledge of truth. I do recognize that the problem lies within me, and the decisions I make.
Let me share just a little of my testimony of faith here. I truly believe God has been with me since I can remember, but I didn’t respond to His Spirit. And there is evidence in my life that points to God Himself, the Great Creator! I can see God’s unchanging hand in my life down through the years. On one occasion I was without a job for over three years, and I prayed to God for doors to be open for me to get a good paying respectful job. This was during the 1990 census. I responded to the ad for an administrator’s assistance. I was very nervous about applying for this type of job with no experience. I desired and needed this job bad. I prayed and ask God to help me, mostly to give me strength to go and apply for this job. I needed boldness to walk in that office and talk with this person, which was the administrator. I fasted and prayed before I went. I dressed properly and walked in that office like I had years of experience, and that was with the help of the Lord. The administrator asks me to have a seat, I sit and the first thing he asked, did I have experience? I didn’t lie, first of all I was trusting God for the job. I said no, but I truly believe I could do the job. He just looked at me. He asked me, how fast you type. I told him and he sit up a time for me to take a typing test. I was so nervous! I took that test but didn’t type as fast and accurate as I should have. My next appointment with him was even more nervous. I walked in and he asked me to have a seat, I sit and he said, “Claudia, if I give you this job would you prove yourself faithful and be here as needed?” I said, yes sir I will. I had the job because God provided for me, it was not because I had years of experience. These are times when I knew God was with me, and when I get in situations and when I feel like I do today, I stand firm on God’s Word. Yes, today I felt stale, but I am so sure in my inner-man that God is with me and He will provide, and He will see me through this pocket of time.
The question was “Where am I going?” This is when the Word of God has to take effect in our lives. Scriptures such as, “My God shall supply all my needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus,” (Philippians 4:19). Back during the interview I stood on this scripture, “I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strength me.” (Philippians 4:13). Where am I going? Where is my life headed now? What am I to do now? These are questions that come to my mind. The ministry of the Lord Jesus Christ in my life now is to take care of the elderly. I do it with all my heart and strength, because God is leading me. God is my way! My life belongs to Him and only to Him. My heart, spirit, and soul are pressing toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:14). God’s Word is quick and powerful, and sharper than any two edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrows, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. (Hebrews 4:12). This why we must trust in God’s Word with all our hearts; and lean not unto our own understanding. We must acknowledge Him in all our ways, so He can direct our path, and make it easier for us when time like these come upon us. We must not be wise in our own eyes, we must fear the Lord, and depart from all evil. God is righteous and want righteous people to live for Him. Please don’t forget that God love you and He sent His only begotten Son to die for your sins, so you wouldn’t have to live in or under condemnation. We are told that once we receive Jesus as our Savior, then we no longer live under condemnation. Read Romans 8:1, it says, “There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.” I am living for the Lord, therefore, I am pressing each and every day for the Kingdom of God. When my life gets upside down, then I look inside my spirit and I connect with the Kingdom of God. The Kingdom of God is not meat and drink; but righteousness, peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost. (Romans 14:17). Right now I am on my way to the Kingdom of God in my inner-man, so I can find that peace and joy. Finally, my friends, I say to you, when you are in a dark place of confusion, and you know Jesus is your Lord and Savior, reach within and find that peace and joy, and trust God always. Now for those who don’t know the Lord, then please accept Him today as your Savior and He will see you through hard times. The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the communion of the Holy Spirit be with you always and forever.
You Are loved.